I spent time for myself most of the time today, only stayed with my family and best friends. I hide my birthday on Facebook and other Social networks. I was not excited like a child but I enjoyed it a lot. Nothing much to do or achieve, just simply enjoy. Realizing that I no longer need to have the wishes of gift from people, no longer need people to remember my birthday, no longer need to be recognized or be important. I know that I still but I’m quite grown at stopping seeking happiness externally. This is what we all do. We try to find the pleasure from people and things around us and we so depended on them. Some of us might not realize it, some may realize but still keep doing it as they are addicted to their emotions.

I was even worse not too many years ago. I had some unhealthy relationships and I got the strong affected by them. My emotion is very easy to shift between good and bad, rarely stable depends on people who I think I love. And whenever I was unhappy, I made friends with junk foods, sweet, Facebook, shopping… And after very short time having the pleasant sensation, I felt even more sad, more empty. I expected many things from people and if I couldn’t have what I want, I got disappointed.

There was no exact moment that I’ve changed my habit or change my life completely, I’ve been just slowly grown up and it’s quite nice to look back after sometime ^_^

So do you. As long as you feel okay, everything is perfectly okay. When you feel ready to change, let’s change. It’s not neither good or bad and no one have the right to judge you and also don’t judge yourself. Just trying to understand yourself and being more aware and you will be fine. We are all learning something in someway and we all are perfect!